Excruciating Suffering: My Struggle Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, like electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often begin with severe discomfort behind a single eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more often affected. Attacks typically start with abrupt, excruciating agony around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan life around unpredictable pain took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest bizarre treatments for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by global medical committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed.

National guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But leading specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are handled with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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